Time to Say Good-Bye

Today's Blog was going to be about the last part of my trip. But something came inbetween. Like things sometimes do. And I now feel like I have to write a few lines about it.

After 13 years of working at the same company I had my almost last day there today (still going to clean up a few things tomorrow morning). And I did a farewell aperitif for everyone I wanted to say good-bye and thank you to. It was great. I guess everyone enjoyed it lots. But when driving home some kind of sadness and maybe regret overcame me. Well, I don't regret about having taken that step. It wasn't easy though. But I've made my decision and I went through with it. At that time it felt like there was still loads of time left until I'd finally leave. But that day has come already. Today. And I just feel sad about leaving. I know it's a good thing to move on (and I really have to). But sometimes leaving sucks. Change too. But it is necessary at some point. I just have to get through these feelings I have right now. Look forward to my trip. Be away for a while. I'm just going to miss the people there. And it's not even like we're not going to see each other at all again. We are. Just not the same way as it has been. I'm going to miss the familiar things. Maybe even just the small things. But the small things are the big things sometimes. We just don't always see them as being that big.

So, I'm in a melancholic mood right now. Sad to. It really made me cry when coming home and looking at the presents I'd gotten from everyone. Especially the basket full of tea. It even has notes written on them. Around 20 or something. I am going to enjoy them when I come home. Colours changing (yes, change is a good thing ... sometimes). Leaves falling down outside. Yet another moment of having to say good-bye. To summer. Winter being just ahead. Me probably dwelling in memories of my 3 months trip to the US.

Nothing endures but change.

~ Heraclitus ~